I read a blog post this week that led me back to my central reason for starting a blog. How do I keep myself from getting lost in mommyhood? I have been doing an awful job of this recently. Mommy guilt has set in on numerous occasions, I can’t remember the last time I have seen my friends outside of Facebook, and ditto on doing anything for myself. How do I fix this new mommy funk?
Get out of the damn house
I’m lucky that I have a set of grandparents at home this week, so I can actually venture out by myself. I’ve been using this time to catch up on work, but what I really need to be doing is getting a pedicure, meeting up with a friend or two, having a date night, going to yoga or going to a museum by myself. I have yanked myself out of the house tonight to write this blog post and to make a plan for not being so lame. I’m snacking on oysters and having a glass of Tempranillo as I type. Step 1 complete.
What can I do tomorrow?
I pledge to get a pedicure and go to yoga. I’m incredibly fortunate to have a light work day tomorrow, and the weather will be unseasonably warm. I really have no excuse, and I know that I will feel so much better after a little pampering. If I can take out time once a week for something for myself, I will be much better off.
Why have I felt so paralyzed?
Well, quite frankly, the election in the US and everything afterwards has left me in quite a funk. As a female scientist, these are not the best of times, and I have become anxious in a way I haven’t felt since 2000, but far worse. I’ve written a list of all that I have been most passionately angered by and will seek to work towards doing my part to feel less powerless.
How can I make sure to continue to push myself?
Planning, planning, planning. With so much to do and so much I want to do, flying by the seat of my pants doesn’t work quite so well anymore. If I want to make time for myself, I have to pencil it in. I want to learn coding, become a better photographer, and make sure I have quality time with my little one on top of my full time job. Travel continues to be a driving force for me, so planning my baby’s first international trip is also on the agenda. I cannot do any of this without a plan and careful time management, so I have to commit to being a taskmaster until this comes more naturally to me. I have my work cut out for me, so wish me luck!